Thursday, September 07, 2006

observations of a 'studious' mind at a fine great school

5 years and 3 Months after I wrote my last educational examination, I wrote another set of exams last weekend at a prestigious school in this Garden City. Not that I didn't attend other kind of exams during this time. I had in fact wrote numerous amount of them during my job search period from 2001 to 2003. My sister even reminded me that I wrote one in April 2004 and that was the Kerala Public Service Exam for Lecturers. But all these were job oriented tests or competitive examinations like GATE, where I had to find out the summations of the arithmetic progressions, full form of DOS (This was actually a question in Kerala PSC for Lecturers), Worst Time Complexity of Merge Sort or a simple train and platform puzzle ;).

This time it was different. I had to WRITE answers to the questions given in a question paper onto the answer sheet provided by my university. Yes, I was attending the First Semester Mid Semester Exam of my MS course from BITS. It took some amount of time to realize that I no more have the speed of writing that I possessed 9 years ago. And all I had to do was just WRITE. Some of the questions were problems, and I found the equations on the fly and calculated the results. But some of them asked me to explain with lucid examples how CMMI model is affecting my daily livelihood of coding and development and even asked me to step into a Project Managers shoes and visualize how you would schedule the Project Roll Out in 90 days Agile Processing. Huh!! Writing was tough, after all these years, what I used to write was the scribbling I made in my personal diary and a few letters I used to send to my best friends. How times have changed, I even forgot the grip I used to have for my pen. TOTAL DISASTERRRRR!!!!!

I was writing the exams back to back - 4 exams in 2 days. The last time I wrote exams that way was in 1995 March when I appeared for the SSLC exams. And that was the last time any kid in Kerala wrote SSLC that way - 12 exams, 6 days back to back from one Wednesday to the next FN 10 AM -12 Noon, AN 1.30PM-3.30 PM (Friday 2pm to 4PM). That was really terrible. This is all about some observations which I made during my two days at the school.

  • Being in a school environment always brings back nostalgic memories of how you spend your childhood and schooling. The ground always beckons you to play a game of football or cricket. The desks and benches tells you the pranks you played, the name markings you made on the desks with the compasses in your camel instrument box and the way you wrote the whole essay in a short way on the desk, benches and even sandals for copying during the forthcoming exams. But sadly I didn't find any desks or benches. Instead there were individual tables and chairs. Gone are the days where you rested your back on the desk behind you only to find out that a Pratheesh's or a Rajesh's chalk markings on the edge of the desk would have coloured the backside of your shirt.
  • Students of these schools speak English lot better than me and they don't even hesitate to threaten you. A big fat boy, who might have been in his 6th or 7th standard told a few of us, who were sitting behind the goal post, to move away as they are not responsible if we get hurt by the banana kicks they were taking. Entammachchiye.. Athu Enganum Kondirunnenkil..
  • Where ever you go, in an examination center you will find a section of studious people who are glued on to their books, brushing the portions last minute and even trying to by heart it walking across the corridor all the time. Some will even find time to check the slides on their Thinkpads!!!. And someone including me will be pretending to study, but will be keeping an eye on all the 'beautiful objects' that move around and also on those studious people.
  • People come on the Ford's, the Toyota's, the Chevy's and even on the Maruthi 800s. Others have their Scootterets, Bikes and ThunderBird :) . An odd guy will come in a Moped or a bicycle too. But one thing most of them forget is a proper parking sense.
  • Poor Husbands who come with their wives will have to sit in the car for the whole day listening to Radio City, Mirchi or One and even will have to buy lunch for the wife who is studying during the lunch hours. Some one can be even seen playing games on their laptops. ;)
  • Some people still approach the exam hall with a bit of tension filled faces and will barge into the exam halls without checking if they belong to that hall. On knowing that they do not belong there they get more tensed and run to find the actual seat.
  • The exam invigilators are the main stream students of BITS and they don't have much to do, apart like the normal college invigilators, who have to give supplementary papers and also have to have a check on the copying. Here the main booklet is so huge and I never noticed anyone asking for a supplementary sheet. Even though people were copying using various means, the invigilators were not interested in it. Either they might not be skilled enough to catch the culprits, who are anytime elder than them and have enough experience in copying, or even after seeing it they might have just left it thinking "Poor Old Chaps come here to get an MS by distant learning, let them pass". Anyways it was a pleasure for me to see people getting chits from their pockets and hiding it in between the answer sheets. If there were single supplementary sheets, I might have just tried it exchanging with a Joju or TP ;)
  • Even now attending a post-graduate course some people don't forget their age old habit of drawing margins on all the answer sheets and finding time to draw the block diagrams with a pencil and scale. Then there is still the habit of being in a meditation till the question papers are distributed and praying after they get the question paper, but before looking at it.
  • And finally after all these actions when the people look at the question papers, one can see the facial expression changing from the concentrated look to "From which Timbuktu did this question came from? " kind of look. Then with the little knowledge they have people tend to become a new Veda Vyasa on their own if it is a subject like Software Engineering & Management or else they will invent a formula that can be made using the data given in the question and will get the nearest possible answer and leave. I don't think any of us would have sat the whole 2 hours.
At the end of the day, I should say I enjoyed it. Being part of an educational procedure of writing tests and that too after 5 years. And while driving back I felt pain on my hands and fingers, due to long writings. I also realized that my hand writing had gone from bad to worse. Now for the next 2 years this cycle is going to continue and I hope to come good and observe a lot more.

Who knows when the lightning will strike ?? (Hmmm ...Idithee Veenu Kattapokayaakandirunnal mathiyarunnu ... *sigh*)

Monday, September 04, 2006

ചില ഓണചിന്തകള്‍..

ഉത്രാടരാത്രി കഴിയാന്‍ ഇനിയും അല്പം മണിക്കൂറുകള്‍ കൂടി. അമ്മ ഇപ്പൊള്‍ അവസാന വട്ട ഒരുക്കങ്ങളില്‍ ആകും. നാളെ , തിരുവോണത്തിനുള്ള ഒരുക്കം, പായസത്തിനുള്ള സാമഗ്രികളും, സദ്യക്കുള്ള ഉപ്പേരിയും എന്നു വേണ്ടാ, നാളേക്കുള്ള പൂവു വരെ സുസജ്ജമാക്കി കാണും ഇപ്പോള്‍ . അതിനായി ഒരു ചെറിയ പാച്ചിലും കൂടി നടത്തികാണണം. ഞാനും ഒരു ചെറിയ പാച്ചില്‍ കഴിഞ്ഞുള്ള വരവു തന്നെ. ഈ നഗരത്തിലെ തിക്കിലും തെരക്കിലും കൂടി എന്റെ, ശകടത്തിന്‍ പോറല്‍ ഒന്നും എല്‍പ്പിക്കാതെ വീടെത്താനുള്ള ഒരു മരണപാച്ചില്‍. മരണപാച്ചില്‍ തന്നെയാണത്‌. ഒരു നിമിഷത്തെ അശ്രദ്ധ മതി ജീവിതം ഈ ഐ. ടി നഗരത്തിന്റെ വീഥികളില്‍ അസ്തമിക്കാന്‍.

ഓണത്തിന്റെ ആദ്യ ഓറ്മ്മകളില്‍ ഒരു ഇരുപതു വര്‍ഷങ്ങള്‍ക്കും മുന്നെ അമ്മയുടെ വീട്ടില്‍ നിന്നു അച്ഛന്റെ വീട്ടിലേക്കുള്ള യാത്രയാണ്‍. ട്രയിനില്‍ കേരളത്തിന്റെ ഒരറ്റം മുതല്‍ മറ്റെയറ്റത്തേക്കുള്ള ഒരു നീണ്ടയാത്ര. ഓണപരീക്ഷയുടെ ചൂടാറും മുന്നെ എന്നെ കൊണ്ടു പോകാന്‍ വരുന്ന ചെറിയച്ഛന്‍ന്മാരെ പരീക്ഷകള്‍ തുടങ്ങിയ നാള്‍ തൊട്ട് ഞാന്‍ എന്നും കാത്തിരുന്നിരുന്നു. പിന്നീടു എപ്പോഴോ ഓണത്തിന്നൊപ്പം ഞാനും വീട്ടില്‍ സ്ഥിരതാമസമാക്കി . എന്നും പൂവിട്ടും സദ്യ ഉണ്ടും കൂട്ടുകൂടിയും തിമിറ്ത്തു നടന്ന കുട്ടിക്കാലം. വളറ്ന്നപ്പോള്‍ കുട്ടിത്തം മനസ്സില്‍ സൂക്ഷിക്കാന്‍ ഞാന്‍ മറന്നു. എങ്കിലും കുട്ടിയായിരിക്കാന്‍ മനസ്സില്‍ സ്വകാര്യമായി ആഗ്രഹിച്ചു.

ഇന്നിപ്പോള്‍ ഓണം ഹോട്ടലില്‍ നിന്നും ആക്കണ്ട സ്ഥിതിയൊന്നും ആയിട്ടില്ലെങ്കിലും സ്വന്തം വീട്ടില്‍ ആഘോഷിക്കാത്ത ഓണം ഒരിക്കലും ഓണമല്ലാല്ലൊ...!!! ഓണത്തിനെപ്പൊഴും അതിന്റെതായ ഒരു സുഗന്ധമാണ്. സ്വന്തം വീട്ടില്‍ മാത്രം കിട്ടുന്ന പൂമണം. ഒരു പാലട പ്രഥമന്റെ മാധുര്യമുള്ള പാല്‍പ്പുഞ്ചിരിപോലെ അതു നമ്മോടൊപ്പം എന്നും മനസ്സില്‍ തങ്ങി നില്‍ക്കുന്നു. ഹ്രുദയത്തില്‍ സൂ‍ക്ഷിച്ചു വയ്ക്കാന്‍ ആ പഴയ മധുരമുള്ള ഓറ്മ്മകളെങ്കിലുമുണ്ടാവണമല്ലോ. സ്വന്തം വീട്ടില്‍ അല്ലാത്ത ഓണവും വിഷുവുമൊക്കെ ഒരു വേദനയാണ്. മനസ്സു നോവുന്ന നേറ്ത്ത ഒരു വേദന.

വീട്ടില്‍ ഇന്നു എല്ലാവരുമുണ്ടെന്നു അമ്മ ഇപ്പോള്‍ വിളിച്ചു പറഞ്ഞു. എന്നെ വല്ലാണ്ടു മിസ്സ് ചെയ്യുന്നു എന്നു അനിയത്തിയും. മനസ്സില്‍ അവിടുത്തെ ഊണുമുറിയില്‍ അത്താഴവും കഴിഞ്ഞ് വെടി പറഞ്ഞിരിക്കുന്ന ഒരു കാഴ്ചയാണ്‍. മനസ്സവിടെയും ശരീരം ഇവിടെയുമായി ഒരു ഓണം.

ഉത്രാടരാത്രി നാലാം യാമത്തിലേക്ക് കടന്നു കഴിഞ്ഞു കാണണം... തിരുവോണം പുലരട്ടെ. പുലറ്ച്ചെ അമ്മ വന്നു വിളിച്ചുണറ്ത്തുമായിരിക്കും .. അല്ലേ...

P.S: I wanted to write this in Malayalam Only, for this was feelings from heart and to write from heart I wanted it to be in Malyalam. Anyone finding it difficult to read please forgive me :) Happy Onam.

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